Wednesday, July 15
GREAT depression. (If you dun like rants, dun look at this post then) =P
Wah, i am damn demoralised, depressed and stress. I tot that the first 2 weeks of school srt was quite ok. Best of all was, i hav a morale boost from my chem teacher, mr yang. I think i seriously miss PRSS too much till it causing me to be v depressed. So Mr Yang, my new chem teacher, actually teaches at PRSS before. Well, PRSS is like a drug to me then mr yang is like a drug reliever. hahas. weird way of saying bt hope you do still understand.Even though i dun cry in school so far cuz i try v hard nt to breakdown in school. There has been too many incidents that really made me feel hopeless. Mayb too stress? hais dunno wad to do. Like the most recent was Physics practical. Everyone says that SPA and practical is the same bt to me its not. Ask me significant error i huh? neither do I wan to copy answers so i ask for help. I mean though they are training me for SPA bt does it mean that i cant ask for help. Feel totally rejected.. This ruined my whole week la. I can seriously tell you I AM STILL DEPRESSED OVER IT! there is too many bad memories in this school that makes me sick of school. I dun regret nt choosing poly bt i regret choosing nt to work hard and ended up in this school.
Talking bout work i am more depressed luh. I am behind time in project work, i am slacking in my Physics tutorial, trying hard to do econs, maths and chem tutorials, almost giving up on general paper. Can someone just KILL ME? I totally stressed out. i walk past school councillor room in school i see the posters. seeing the symptoms of stress. Forgetfulness? Yes. Cries Easily? Yes. These are the 2 words i see when i walk past. Oh i hav to continue morning run. It TOTALLY sux to the max. I really HATE, I MEAN IT, this school. stupid TPJC. I am really sorry to those who love this sch. I cant get to love this sch.
people who are concerned, sorry to tell you this. you can ask me to tell you wad is happening. bt i will only lie and say i am ok. i dun wanna be a mental burden to you people and also tell you all this wont really make me feel better. bt i still love you all. when telling you all stuff makes me feel better i will. So people, esp e7 people, try nt to ask.. Really hav no mood to elaborate and talk and wadeva. Anyway if too emo, tell me. hahas.
Friday, July 3
Deserve IT!
hmm tink i gonna do badly for SA. didnt really study much and still hav gp stuff nt done. so sian luh. i tink i gettin more depressed by the moment luh. H1N1, homework, test results blah blah.. Really wish i could be those dun care people. No friends, dun care. What people think, dun care. Bt i am learning too. I know i really care about what people think of me bt i will learn nt to care. I dun wan to care anymore in TPJC. This school deserves nth tt i should care for besides my studies and mayb some teachers, friends and ex-pasirians here. I must learn to motivate myself to work and watch less TV. hahas. so sinful. just wanted to post these. hahas. let's have some kinda random wishlist here. (=Wishlist for 2009:
1. Pass promos to go JC2 with great results
2. Learn to not care about people's thinking
3. Successfully have a 'A' grade PW and Chinese result
4. Learn to motivate myself, watch less TV and WORK HARD independently!
5. Get better at doing GP, physics and econs (Subjects that i cant get a real 50% pass)
Wednesday, June 24
DESSERTS;STRESSED
Quite long nv post le. This time post random stuff. Still have a lot of work to do. Project work is the most demanding luh, just feel like dumping the work the my group members then i can slack. SO 'lucky' to tio sabo become leader. Wonder if i can take up this task. Until now nt much major problem coming up for pw. Well, mayb sometimes the members are just tt little un-cooperative. The assistant leader is an SL then he also busy. Sometimes just feel like its nt my PI, dun understand bt still need to bare wif going on wif it. I REALLY hope to get A for PW. *crosses fingers*This week last week of holiday. Its v funny that a lot of petition and polls were there to demand? for an extended week of hoilday. Bt still everyone has to return to school next week, pri, sec and jc students. so far i know. Still have a lot of work not done. So little motivation from jc class. Really miss E7, so competitive yet cosy class. Sometimes i really HATE general paper, bt sometimes i dont. My work for general paper are piling up massively. Teehee. Trying to clear poverty cycle. The rest of the subj are still manageable in the sense i understand. However, by results only Chemistry, Chinese and Mathematics can make it. =X Hopefully Semestral Assessment can help me pull up my marks. Cant imagine if i tio retain.(TOUCH WOOD!)
Last Friday just went to Escape wif my QinAiDe(Tinghuan), Ron and Jeremy. Seriously, was dumb for me to go cuz i dun really take the rides there. Bt well Tinghuan had some free tickets to finish using. I went and most of the time i was the photographer. (= I am professional de. Hahas. Then went to cycle. The bic that we rented was kinda insecure to me. =X I spent all my money tt day and i can really declare bankrupt. I left $0.05. Damn pathetic. Bt i had lots of fun and i learnt that nv eat in fastfood restaurants in Escape. Its athe reason i became broke. Hees.
Saturday, June 6
DEAD!
Well, for holidays i am MUCH prettty DEAD!! I just finished reading last half of new moon today in only a few hr. I nv done that b4 and i was purely engrossed in reading finish and getting to the end esp when it was bout EDWARD and BELLA! oops. That's one of the thing that will kill me. then also i haven STARTED studying for TEST!!! PANICK! hahas. bt of course i still v calm. dunno why.. hais. stupid calm girl. hahas. oh and of course i feel kinda DEAD wif the GPP thing. hav data collection and final draft is on THURSDAY. Now i really DREAD pw. hais. then i dun feel that i am fitting into class yet after like prolly half a yr. Sob. Mayb wif some of the guys, some of the girls. Bt there is still some unseen and bothering thought tt i tink i am right and it would happen as long as we trust each other. Yet i feel betrayed when it happened the other way. Hais. Also, sometimes seeing my friends in pain bcuz of fwen or wadever, i feel for them hoping they would feel better. hais. bt sometimes unable to help them makes me feel so bad. =XSunday, May 31
Burfday!
went to ron's birthday celebration on friday. had lots of fun luh. went to e hub to meet them, nv go eat wif them luh (agga, zhaode, tinghuan and ron). ron planned to go to his hse bt unfortunately there were 5 of us and hard to get a cab then as time passed, agga and zhaode went archery at safra. me ad tinghuan esp. me disturb ron. it was a long time since i saw ron. so was quite nice to see him and talk to him. tinghuan and i went to his uncle hse to eat dinner and hang out for a while. well it was a first for me to b at friends uncle hse and with his relatives and ah ma. ((=watched a while movie then jeremy came. frankly, it was my first time talking and knowing him. hahas. oh ya, played pool. hahas. learn a little la bt still noob, same for tinghuan bt she better than me! hee. then went bac to ron hse. played and did a lot of candid shot of people. ron and jeremy went for a swim. made funny attempts to take picture of them, esp. jeremy who refuses to take them 'half-dressed'.. hahas. oops. dunno how and lazy to describe (bt the pic at FB).. ate birthday cake, frankly eat too much birthday cake can faint. @.@ then eat finish le go home luh. took taxi and jeremy was like asking the taxi uncle bout Geylang while driving away fr there. jeremy was nice and he paid for the taxi fare to eunos mrt. here's the random stuff le. Jeremy, hmm first impression: nice , rich guy who does not turn out to be as bad as those potrayed in tv. hahas. (=
Monday, May 25
Holidays, mayb not
hahas, many of us going to hav sch holis soon. bt my holi so sian luh. 1st 2 week hav physics, gp, maths, econs mayb and first aid if cannot change the date. bt end of 2nd wk have class bbq. woot. hahas. now in super mad rush to finish CA book and do reading log. damn sian. hais i keep thinking bout you e7 peeps. So look forward to our class gathering luh. then holi hav to study for SA after holi. then also hav data collection to do for project work. can some1 speed up the time. haiz. i really want to see all of you, no matter in my sch or not, just seen recently or not, like me or not. I really miss that class spirit we have. oops. not saying current class nt gd bt dun hav that noisy bt studious xida, crappy bt nice garret, nonsense bt caring and plesant voices of qiu mei & xiao xuan, hysterical bt funny fabian, pale looking basketball loving minsan XD, pretty bt bit shy tinghuan, loud spoken sociable peiyun and minhui, cool and chinese pro xuewei... hahas. ((=Sunday, May 17
Great! ((=
Yesterday tink i a bit crazy then went to study for the whole day. Afternoon, study fr. 11+ to 3 at hse nearby mac wif xi da and his roommate who actually came to eat for us to sit in mac to study. hahas. then after that walk home. well xida didnt realise tt my card nt concession so in the end he walked home wif me. hahas. idiot la. hav bus dun wan to take. on the way home he ask me to go study at airport at ard 5 wif some others too. (= was like thinking cfm cannot de then was tinking of excuses to get out cuz study wif long time nv see friends. the idiot even threatened to come my hse to break the door. (as if he would! =X) so i went home read my chinese story book that was meant for my chinese book review assignment. hav some part of the book a bit (A). 
We studied till like 9.15 then we went to eat at foodcourt. hahas. of course during studying we still stop and chit chat a while luh. (= the idiot xida has ulcers after eating mac for 3 days. hahas. ok then we went home on mrt. my mum was worried so she called me a few times. we went to mrt then took the train all the way down to tanah merah. then my bro called me to ask him to go bus stop wait for me when i reaching soon. bt i told him i took 60, 66 then he asked me to walk home myself. =X Then i went home on the bus then drop near my hse there.
A nice guy (nt gonna tell you who.) was worried tt something might happen cuz like late le(10.30+ le) so he walked me to my house. we walked while talking. talked a lot of stuff la. The guy said tt he finally realise Singapore was so nt safe when he saw the way i walked damn dark. hahas. =X I tink the worst thing for nice guy was tt reach my house alr he could hav went home bt the lift unfortunately malfunction right in front of our eyes! damn suay! so we took the stairs to 3rd floor. then i went home. Really hav to thanks this angel luh. (= Really grateful to hav a great friend like this angel. went home and told my mum bout him and i laughed the whole time i retell the story.
